What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma by Stephanie Foo

“Trauma isn’t just the sadness that comes from being beaten, or neglected, or insulted. That’s just one layer of it. Trauma also is mourning the childhood you could have had. The childhood other kids around you had. The fact that you could have had a mom who hugged and kissed you when you skinned your knee. Or a dad who stayed and brought you a bouquet of flowers at your graduation. Trauma is mourning the fact that, as an adult, you have to parent yourself. You have to stand in your kitchen, starving, near tears, next to a burnt chicken, and you can’t call your mom to tell her about it, to listen to her tell you that it’s okay, to ask if you can come over for some of her cooking. Instead, you have to pull up your bootstraps and solve the painful puzzle of your life by yourself. What other choice do you have? Nobody else is going to solve it for you.”
Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

Published in February 2022, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma by Stephanie Foo discusses complex PTSD and the uphill battle for a diagnosis and treatment. Stephanie, a journalist and former radio producer for This American Life, details her journey to diagnosis, the roadblocks she hit, and how she was able to reclaim her agency from the trauma she faced as a child. This book was powerful and hopeful, while at times completely devastating. Stephanie acknowledges at the beginning that this book may be difficult for some to get through and gives permission for those readers that need to to skip ahead as much as they need. What My Bones Know is a brave memoir that isn’t afraid to stare down the tough parts of the past in order to find a way to help the present.

As an adult, Stephanie had all the looks of success: her dream job at This American Life and a loving, supportive boyfriend. Even though she had all this, behind the scenes Stephanie was a mess. She found interactions with others to be difficult, often crying at her desk every morning and suffering from debilitating panic attacks, alternating with intense bouts of anger. What was causing this behavior? Stephanie sought out help from a therapist and was eventually diagnosed with complex PTSD, a condition that results from trauma that happens continuously over many years. This diagnosis didn’t immediately switch a flip in Stephanie, leading her to be instantly cured. Instead she found herself looking for ways to heal through research and interviews with experts.

As a child, Stephanie suffered years of neglect as well as physical and verbal abuse at the hands of her parents, which led to both of her parents abandoning her when she was a teenager. Stephanie always believed that she had dealt with her feelings regarding those situations and that she had ‘moved on’, but when examining her complex PTSD diagnosis, she realizes that her past was creeping into her present with the potential to destroy her career, her relationships, and her health. Her journey to healing was made difficult by lack of resources and limited study of complex PTSD, so Stephanie decided to treat her diagnosis as she would treat a new job: she would do her own research and conduct her own interviews. In this memoir, Stephanie seeks out experts in the field, travels to her California hometown to interview friends, and flies back to Malaysia where she was born to question her relatives. She tried new therapies, investigates the wider influence of immigrant trauma on families and communities as a whole, and looks into how trauma slides through generations, impacting those not yet born. Throughout her journey, Stephanie documents her ups and downs, highlighting how she has changed through the years, while also acknowledging that everyone’s journey will differ through their own individual processes of discovery.

“Being healed isn’t about feeling nothing. Being healed is about feeling the appropriate emotions at the appropriate times and still being able to come back to yourself. That’s just life.”
― Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

Books about Divorce

Books about divorces are trending right now. Whether it is a nonfiction memoir or an autofictional novel, the representation of divorce in these books is varied. Below you will find a list of nonfiction and fiction books about divorce published recently that are all owned by the Davenport Public Library. Descriptions are provided by the publishers.

Nonfiction

This American Ex-Wife: How I Ended My Marriage and Started My Life by Lyz Lenz

Studies show that nearly 70 percent of divorces are initiated by women—women who are tired, fed up, exhausted, and unhappy. We’ve all seen how the media portrays divorcées: sad, lonely, drowning their sorrows in a bottle of wine. Lyz Lenz is one such woman whose life fell apart after she reached a breaking point in her twelve-year marriage. But she refused to take part in that tired narrative and decided to flip the script on divorce.

In this exuberant and unapologetic book, Lenz makes an argument for the advantages of getting divorced, framing it as a practical and effective solution for women to take back the power they are owed. Weaving reportage with sociological research and literature with popular culture along with personal stories of coming together and breaking up, Lenz creates a kaleidoscopic and poignant portrait of American marriage today. She argues that the mechanisms of American power, justice, love, and gender equality remain deeply flawed, and that marriage, like any other cultural institution, is due for a reckoning. A raucous argument for acceptance, solidarity, and collective female refusal, This American Ex-Wife takes readers on a riveting ride—while pointing us all toward a life that is a little more free. – Crown


The Next Day: Transitions, Change, and Moving Forward by Melinda French Gates

Transitions are moments in which we step out of our familiar surroundings and into a new landscape—a space that, for many people, is shadowed by confusion, fear, and indecision. The Next Day accompanies readers as they cross that space, offering guidance on how to make the most of the time between an ending and a new beginning and how to move forward into the next day when the ground beneath you is shifting.

In this book, Melinda will reflect, for the first time in print, on some of the most significant transitions in her own life, including becoming a parent, the death of a dear friend, and her departure from the Gates Foundation. The stories she tells illuminate universal lessons about loosening the bonds of perfectionism, helping friends navigate times of crisis, embracing uncertainty, and more.

Each one of us, no matter who we are or where we are in life, is headed toward transitions of our own. With her signature warmth and grace, Melinda candidly shares stories of times when she was in need of wisdom and shines a path through the open space stretching out before us all. – Flatiron Books


No Fault: A Memoir of Romance and Divorce by Haley Mlotek

An intimate and candid account of one of the most romantic and revolutionary of relationships: divorce

Divorce was everything for Haley Mlotek. As a child, she listened to her twice-divorced grandmother tell stories about her “husbands.” As a pre-teen, she answered the phones for her mother’s mediation and marriage counseling practice and typed out the paperwork for couples in the process of leaving each other. She grew up with the sense that divorce was an outcome to both resist and desire, an ordeal that promised something better on the other side of something bad. But when she herself went on to marry—and then divorce—the man she had been with for twelve years, suddenly, she had to reconsider her generation’s inherited understanding of the institution.

Deftly combining her personal story with wry, searching social and literary exploration, No Fault is a deeply felt and radiant account of 21st century divorce—the remarkably common and seemingly singular experience, and what it reveals about our society and our desires for family, love, and friendship. Mlotek asks profound questions about what divorce should be, who it is for, and why the institution of marriage maintains its power, all while charting a poignant and cathartic journey away from her own marriage towards an unknown future.

Brilliant, funny, and unflinchingly honest, No Fault is a kaleidoscopic look at marriage, secrets, ambitions, and what it means to love and live with uncertainty, betrayal, and hope. – Viking

Fiction

All Fours by Miranda July

A semi-famous artist announces her plan to drive cross-country, from LA to NY. Thirty minutes after leaving her husband and child at home, she spontaneously exits the freeway, checks into a nondescript motel, and immerses herself in an entirely different journey.

Miranda July’s second novel confirms the brilliance of her unique approach to fiction. With July’s wry voice, perfect comic timing, unabashed curiosity about human intimacy, and palpable delight in pushing boundaries, All Fours tells the story of one woman’s quest for a new kind of freedom. Part absurd entertainment, part tender reinvention of the sexual, romantic, and domestic life of a forty-five-year-old female artist, All Fours transcends expectation while excavating our beliefs about life lived as a woman. Once again, July hijacks the familiar and turns it into something new and thrillingly, profoundly alive. – Riverhead Books


Liars by Sarah Manguso

A nuclear family can destroy a woman artist. I’d always known that. But I’d never suspected how easily I’d fall into one anyway.

When Jane, an aspiring writer, meets filmmaker John Bridges, they both want the same things: to be in love, to live a successful, creative life, and to be happy. When they marry, Jane believes she has found everything she was looking for, including—a few years later—all the attendant joys and labors of motherhood. But it’s not long until Jane finds herself subsumed by John’s ambitions, whims, and ego; in short, she becomes a wife.

As Jane’s career flourishes, their marriage starts to falter. Throughout the upheavals of family life, Jane tries to hold it all together. That is, until John leaves her.

Liars is a tour de force of wit and rage, telling the blistering story of a marriage as it burns to the ground, and of a woman rising inexorably from its ashes. – Hogarth


Animal Instinct by Amy Shearn

The world has stopped. But Rachel is just getting started…

It’s spring of 2020 and Rachel Bloomstein—mother of three, recent divorcée, and Brooklynite—is stuck inside. But her newly awakened sexual desire and lust for a new life refuse to be contained. Leaning on her best friend Lulu to show her the ropes, Rachel dips a toe in the online dating world, leading to park dates with younger men, flirtations with beautiful women, and actual, in-person sex. None of them, individually, are perfect . . . hence her rotation.

But what if one person could perfectly cater to all her emotional needs?
Driven by this possibility, Rachel creates Frankie, the AI chatbot she programs with all the good parts of dating in middle age . . . and some of the bad. But as Rachel plays with her fantasy to her heart’s content, she begins to realize she can’t reprogram her ex-husband, her children, her friends, or the roster of paramours that’s grown unwieldy. Perhaps real life has more in store for Rachel than she could ever program for herself. – G.P. Putnam’s Sons


Crush by Ada Calhoun

When a husband asks his wife to consider what might be missing from their marriage, what follows surprises them both—sex, heartbreak and heart rekindling, and a rediscovered sense of all that is possible

She’s happy and settled and productive and content in her full life—a child, a career, an admirable marriage, deep friendships, happy parents, and a spouse she still loves. But when her husband urges her to address what the narrow labels of “husband” and “wife” force them to edit out of their lives, the very best kind of hell breaks loose.

Using the author’s personal experiences as a jumping-off point, Crush is about the danger and liberation of chasing desire, the havoc it can wreak, and most of all the clear sense of self one finds when the storm passes. Destined to become a classic novel of marriage, and tackling the big questions being asked about partnership in postpandemic relationships, Crush is a sharp, funny, seductive, and revelatory novel about holding on to everything it’s possible to love—friends, children, parents, passion, lovers, husbands, all of the world’s good books, and most of all one’s own deep sense of purpose. – Viking

What Happened to Connie Chung?

But first, her trajectory to the top.  The glass ceiling Connie obliterated was thick and two-paned.  She so embodied the American dream that thousands of Generation Y Asian girls bear her name. Not only was she a driven woman in the very real Ron Burgundy era of broadcast news, but also the daughter of Chinese immigrants.  Connie implies the secret of her success was simply not giving a damn about anyone’s taunts.  Walter Cronkite was a supportive influence.  Also, shocking to no one, Bryant Gumbel is a diva.

And how did she end up with a more sophisticated Jerry Springer?  Connie promises he’s actually quite an intellectual.  Well as it turns out, when he wasn’t determining America’s paternity for our amusement, Maury was a suave (and married) anchor in DC in 1969.  She was the copy girl. When they met again in California in 1977, she was a single newswoman running in Hollywood circles….with Ryan O’Neal, and one of the Eagles…you get the idea.

Time had passed and the tables had turned.  Maury started getting called Mr. Chung.  He loved her so much at the age of 56 he decided to start his second family.  For those keeping score, Connie was 49.  Dan Rather’s final temper tantrum got her the axe in 2005.  Serendipitously, she exchanged said red-faced fit for the analogous wails of an adopted newborn a mere two weeks later.  When one door closes, another opens.  She’s been there ever since.  With nothing more to prove, she has persevered in our hearts.

A Well-Trained Wife: My Escape from Christian Patriarchy by Tia Levings

“When we are not free to say no, we are not free to say yes either.”
― Tia Levings, A Well-Trained Wife: My Escape from Christian Patriarchy

Tia Levings grew up surrounded by religion. She believed that in order to be a good Christian, she had to follow a set of life principles or rules that non-Christians weren’t allowed to know. These secret, special rules would guide her and her future family to salvation and protect their souls. As a young wife, Tia was recruited into the fundamentalist Quiverfull movement, guided by her new husband. Their relationship was rocky right from the start, but as she was raised to be silent and defer to the men in her life, Tia followed his directives. As a godly and submissive wife, Tia’s new routine centered around isolation, strict discipline, and living a wholesome life as the keeper of the home.

While their lives looked wholesome to outsiders, inside the home was another story. The fundamentalist teachings that she was raised with led her to an abusive marriage with little hope to escape. Thinking that what she was going through was somehow sanctioned by God and that other women were also going through this, Tia stayed. The longer she stayed married, the more dangerous and rocky her life became. Her husband laid down rules for the family that Tia had to follow, but also that could spell danger if anyone outside the home discovered. She wasn’t allowed to vote, visit doctors, put her children in school, or miss church sermons. Outside help was frowned upon.

While Tia struggled to keep the family together, her husband struggled to find his calling. He moved the family around the country searching for new churches that fit his religious beliefs. As a firm believer in patriarchy, he expected complete submission from Tia, perpetuating a cycle of patriarchal men and submissive women that Tia rebelled against. Through access to the internet, the library, and friends, Tia started to resist and question how she lived and the beliefs she as told to follow blindly. Having opinions proved dangerous. Her decision to learn more than what she was told eventually led Tia to a choice: she either had to face the consequences of her actions or escape with her children and start a new life.

This memoir broke me. Wanting to learn more about the teachings of Fundamentalist Christian religion and the struggles of women inside, I knew A Well-Trained Wife: My Escape from Christian Patriarchy would start me down that journey. Reading about her religious journey, her husband’s extreme views, and the details of the many churches they joined was difficult. I felt a wide-range of emotions while reading this book, at times crying with sadness, screaming with anger, and laughing with joy. The abuse and heartache that Tia endured destroyed me, but the fact that she was still able to discover her own thoughts, feelings, and her own voice that allowed her to leave and become her true self left me grateful she had the strength and will to write this book.

“Years later, on Instagram, I’d read a meme that read, ‘Why were we taught to fear the witches instead of the men who burned them?” And who were witches, anyway, but women with knowledge, skills, and names?’ “
― Tia Levings, A Well-Trained Wife: My Escape from Christian Patriarchy

Counting the Cost by Jill Duggar

“It’s like roses and thorns, justice and grace. You can recognize the beauty and happy parts of your story while also recognizing the more difficult parts. The two can coexist. The highs aren’t automatically erased or invalidated by the lows.”
― Jill Duggar, Counting the Cost

In 2008, the world was introduced to the Duggar family, headed by parents Jim Bob and Michelle. This traditional Christian family followed the teachings of the Institute in Basic Life Principles founded by Bill Gothard. To viewers, the family presented a happy God-fearing front eventually having nineteen children who all followed a strict model of patriarchy. Men were superior, while women are discouraged from higher education and expected to become wives and mothers. They also believed in an umbrella of protection which essentially means that parental authority over children extended into adulthood overruling marriage covenants. The show stayed on the air until 2015 when an arrest shattered their world, drudging up painful memories yet again.

Jill Duggar, the responsible second daughter, never questioned her parents. When her father introduced Jill to Derick Dillard, she knew she had found her match. As the two progressed in their relationship, growing older, getting married, traveling the world, and having children of their own, Jill started noticing some red flags about her childhood, her family, and their beliefs. The two tried to be obedient and not rock the boat, but when family restrictions butted up against business commitments, Jill and Derick knew they needed to break free. The cost of staying silent was too high. Jill decided it was time to talk about the intimidation, secrets, and manipulation that were a part of her life for too long. Relying on time, therapy, and God to help them, they started the process of finding themselves outside what they had always known. Finding healing is excruciatingly difficult, but through honesty they are able to build a life all of their own. Counting the Cost is their story of breaking free.

The House of My Mother: A Daughter’s Quest for Freedom by Shari Franke

“I wondered how the public’s consumption of others’ pain and suffering cross the line from empathy to voyeurism. How quickly have we, as a society, become numb to the struggles of others, our capacity for compassion eroded by the sheer volume of human drama we’re exposed to daily? We were just characters in a soap opera now, except the drama was real, and the consequences permanent. Our grief had been reduced to a mere commodity, packaged and sold, consumed and discarded.”
― Shari Franke, The House of My Mother: A Daughter’s Quest for Freedom

I am fascinated by true crime. What intrigues me is not the violence perpetrated, but the motivations of the abusers. What made them the way that they are? Was it nature or nurture? The case of Ruby Franke, the viral 8 Passengers family vlog, and her eventual arrest on multiple charges of aggravated child abuse in 2023 had me researching family vlogging culture and how manipulative cults can damage their members. When I learned that Shari Franke, Ruby Franke’s eldest child, was releasing a book entitled The House of My Mother: A Daughter’s Quest for Freedom, I knew I needed to read it, as Shari has become a vocal proponent of the dangers of family vlogging and an advocate against child exploitation in social media.

Shari Franke’s childhood was doomed from the start. Her mother, Ruby Franke, had a severe moral code that grew into even greater delusions of righteousness after she created her popular YouTube channel 8 Passengers. On said channel, which eventually had 2.5 million subscribers, Ruby documented the day-to-day life of raising six children. Everything in the Franke household was orchestrated by Ruby. Subscribers loved Ruby’s wholesome mommy blogger online persona, but Shari knew another side of her mother: the fierce tyrannical parent who did not tolerate disobedience.

Ruby’s behavior changed for the worse after she met relationship coach Jodi Hildebrandt. Jodi and Ruby together created inhumane living conditions and were merciless in delivering discipline. Jodi’s influence on Ruby was sadistic. The family relationships and conditions within the family home quickly deteriorated, leaving Jodi and Ruby with eventual complete control of the four youngest Franke children.

All the while, Shari was fighting for the truth. This book is her battle cry. She describes her childhood with Ruby, what life was really like in the Franke household, and how Jodi’s involvement brought out Ruby’s even darker side. While revealing the horrors that befell them once Ruby joined “ConneXions,” Jodi’s cultish life coaching program, Shari draws her own moral line in the sand. She will not disclose her younger siblings’ names or detail the four youngest’s stories. As I mentioned earlier, Shari is a vocal proponent of the dangers of family vlogging and an advocate against child exploitation in social media. Shari talks about how perilous influencer culture is and how her mother’s cruelty destroyed them, but eventually provided a springboard of truth and survival for Shari, her younger siblings, and their father.

“No child should ever have to earn a parent’s affection. And no amount of achievement can ever fill the void where unconditional love should be.”
― Shari Franke, The House of My Mother: A Daughter’s Quest for Freedom

Oprah’s Latest Book Club Pick: The Tell by Amy Griffin

Join Simply Held to have certain celebrity book club picks automatically put on hold for you: Reese Witherspoon, Jenna Bush Hager, and Oprah Winfrey. While Reese and Jenna generally announce a new title each month, Oprah’s selections are more sporadic. Reminder that if you join Simply Held, you can choose to have these titles automatically put on hold for you.

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Oprah Winfrey’s latest selection is The Tell by Amy Griffin.

Curious what The Tell is about? Check out the following description provided by the publisher.

For decades, Amy ran. Through the dirt roads of Amarillo, Texas, where she grew up; to the campus of the University of Virginia, as a student athlete; on the streets of New York, where she built her adult life; through marriage, motherhood, and a thriving career. To outsiders, it all looked, in many ways, perfect. But Amy was running from something—a secret she was keeping not only from her family and friends, but unconsciously from herself. “You’re here, but you’re not here,” her daughter said to her one night. “Where are you, Mom?” So began Amy’s quest to solve a mystery trapped in the deep recesses of her own memory—a journey that would take her into the burgeoning field of psychedelic therapy, to the limits of the judicial system, and ultimately, home to the Texas panhandle, where her story began.

In her search for the truth, to understand and begin to recover from buried childhood trauma, Griffin interrogates the pursuit of perfectionism, control, and maintaining appearances that drives so many women, asking, when, in our path from girlhood to womanhood, did we learn to look outside ourselves for validation? What kind of freedom is possible if we accept the whole story and embrace who we really are? With hope, heart, and relentless honesty, she points a way forward for all of us, revealing the power of radical truth-telling to deepen our connections—with others and ourselves. – The Dial Press

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Check out these books by local authors

Dozens of titles were added to our Local Authors collection in 2024. These are books written by authors born or living in Scott County, Iowa, or Rock Island County, Illinois. In most cases, the items were donated to the Davenport Public Library by the authors themselves. Here are just some of the newest Local Author items available for checkout.

Fiction and genre fiction

Poetry

 

Nonfiction

Teens

Kids

If you are a Quad Cities-based author, whether traditionally published or self-published, please consider donating a copy of your book to our Local Authors collection so that it can be checked out and enjoyed by our patrons. Email Beth Paul at bpaul@davenportlibrary.com for details about making the donation.

That Librarian: The Fight Against Book Banning in America by Amanda Jones

When Amanda Jones spoke out against censorship at a public library board meeting in Livingston Parish, Louisiana, she became the target of two local bloggers. They produced memes and other social media posts with targets on her head and called her a groomer and pedophile. Soon after, her personal information and work address were publicized, and she started receiving death threats. Jones decided to fight back. She filed defamation and harassment lawsuits against the men.

That Librarian: The Fight Against Book Banning in America by Amanda Jones goes beyond describing the legal battle between Jones and the two men. If you’re just dipping your toe into anti-censorship work and need to learn about the foundational arguments around intellectual freedom, this is the book for you. If you are interested in why more books are being challenged in public libraries and public schools, this book explains the motivation behind those challenges. Finally, if you are interested in a manifesto from a librarian on the front line, defending her student’s right to read freely and the public’s right to see themselves represented at their library, you will enjoy this book.

One caveat, the book does get repetitive. I read this as an ebook and there were times I thought I accidently scrolled back to a previous chapter. Instead, it was Jones making the same point as in a previous chapter, just in a slightly different way. The book does describe the lawsuits, dismissals and appeals, but it is not the focus of the book. Also, there is not a satisfactory ending to the legal battle because the appeals are ongoing. However, there is inspiration in knowing that Jones is a leader in advocating for inclusivity and representation in all libraries.

That Librarian: The Fight Against Book Banning in America by Amanda Jones is available in regular print and large print at the time of this writing.

Dinner for Vampires: Life on a Cult TV Show (While Also in an Actual Cult)

“In a cult, safety means agreement. The irony, of course, is that while you are not allowed to have your own opinion about my beliefs, I am allowed to have an opinion about yours.”
― Bethany Joy Lenz, Dinner for Vampires: Life on a Cult TV Show

What television show influenced you as a teenager? For me, it was One Tree Hill. Running for nine seasons from 2003 to 2012, this teen drama follows the lives of half-brother Lucas and Nathan Scott as they grow up in Tree Hill, North Carolina. They switch between rivals, friends, and family as they compete on the basketball court and amongst their friends. Bethany Joy Lenz, the author of Dinner for Vampires: Life on a Cult TV Show (While also in an Actual Cult), plays Haley James on the show, best friend to Lucas Scott. Haley was portrayed as the nerdy, mousey friend, the one who would rather read and stay home than hang out with the loud crowd. To say I related to Haley as a teenager would be a massive understatement, so when she announced her book, Dinner for Vampires, I knew I needed to give it a read.

Dinner for Vampires begins with Lenz’s childhood. Growing up as an only child, Lenz searches for a place to belong. She often had to fend for herself, living with parents who were less than happy with each other. Her family frequently moved, following her dad across the country as he switched jobs. As a young adult, Lenz found the family she was looking for when she joins a Bible study filled with other Hollywood types. Relieved to have found people with similar beliefs, she relaxes. The group isn’t as nice as they seem though. Soon they change into something more dangerous, although it takes Lenz years to realize this. Under the pretense of love in The Big House Family, they weave a web of lies, abuse, fear, and manipulation, lulling their members into complacency and lives of docility to never want to leave. Lenz slowly starts giving away pieces of herself: her autonomy, her belongings, and millions of her TV income.

“I found out that when the numbness lasts for long enough it bears a striking resemblance to peace.”
― Bethany Joy Lenz, Dinner for Vampires: Life on a Cult TV Show

Lenz is filming One Tree Hill during her time in The Big House Family, eventually splitting her time between filming in North Carolina and the Family’s Pacific Northwest compound. She is eventually compelled to marry one of the minister’s sons and her life only continues to spiral from there. Once Lenz becomes a mother, she realizes that she has to escape to save her daughter from a similar fate. Escaping is only the beginning. She has to start to heal from her trauma and reevaluate her relationship with God, religion, and faith.

Dinner for Vampires is heartbreaking and profound. I listened to the audiobook, where the author narrates as herself, as well as some guest voice appearances from other actors. Her insights into her acting experiences were eye-opening, watching her grow from a child actor to an adult actor. Her secret life while filming One Tree Hill was interesting as it shed some light onto some of the producing decisions during the show. Reading about the financial crimes and abuse that happened to Lenz and others was infuriating, but her intense desire to speak out and fight helped her to start healing from the trauma.

“I think we’re all little cathedrals of contradiction. Terrifying darkness and shocking beauty coexist in everyone, and God doesn’t wait for us to clean out all the bad before celebrating the good. It’s scandalous, really—that kind of love.”
― Bethany Joy Lenz, Dinner for Vampires: Life on a Cult TV Show