When my to-read list is overwhelming, I look up book award lists. One of my favorites is the National Book Awards and my latest read came from that list! A First Time for Everything by Dan Santat won the National Book Award for Young People’s Literature in 2023. This graphic memoir caught my attention straight from the beginning and left me reminiscing about my middle grade years.

Dan Santat was an awkward kid. His middle grade school years were especially awkward, but thankfully a trip to Europe helped turn his life around just in time for high school. Dan may be a good kid, but that doesn’t stop him from being bullied. While he feels like he’s invisible some days, others he is constantly picked on while staying out of trouble. When his parents find a brochure talking about a class trip to Europe, they decide that Dan must go because when else is he going to have the chance. Dan has low expectations and is decidedly not excited to go.

When he shows up at the airport, his feelings are confirmed. He’s stuck with the same middle school girls who made fun of him, showcased through a series of flashbacks throughout the book. As he travels through Europe, seeing the sights in France, Germany, Switzerland, and England, Dan starts to open up as he experiences a series of firsts. He decides he wants to try all the different types of Fanta, has his first Fondue, accidentally steals a bike in Germany, and most importantly has his first love. Dan slowly breaks out of his shell while going through the big emotions that we all experienced as thirteen year old kids trying to find our way in the world.

This graphic memoir was funny and adorable. I found myself commiserating with Dan as he struggled to express himself and crying along with him as he had to say goodbye to his first love. The author acknowledges how even though his middle school years were awkward, they also changed his life. This is such a reflective and self-affirming graphic memoir for all of us that went through challenging middle school years.